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Life has never been boring
Grant Woodward
23 April 2010
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Beverley Callard's life story has as many plot twists as that of her Coronation Street character Liz McDonald. From her battle with depression that left her contemplating suicide to a shocking family secret that scarred her childhood, teen pregnancy and three failed marriages.
Soap queen Beverley Callard lay curled up in a ball in the hospital bed, dreaming of ways to end her life. First she had stockpiled her tablets in a bid to build up a stash big enough to overdose on, but that plan had been discovered. Now she thought about smashing the lightbulb in her room and using the glass to slash her wrists. But however it happened, she knew she no longer wanted to live.
She had been rushed to the Priory Clinic near Manchester on Valentine's Day, lost in the black fog of clinical depression that had left her unable to set foot on the Coronation Street set. Looking a world away from the brassy glamour of landlady Liz McDonald, her frizzy hair was matted around her face and on the rare occasions she made it out of bed she was hunched over and only able to take the tiniest of steps.
"I didn't want any visitors, but the few people who did come and see me – my partner Jon (McEwan] and some very close friends – said I looked like a 100-year-old lady," says Beverley now in a quiet, measured voice. "I didn't take a step for weeks, I couldn't walk. My consultant said my body had gone on complete shutdown. Most of the time I was curled up on my bed talking to myself.
"I was in a black hole and literally in torment. And when you get to that place it's not a cry for help, you just want it to end. They had tried all sorts of medications but eventually I had to have ECT (electric shock therapy), which is a last resort. It's a frightening, controversial procedure which conjures up images of Frankenstein and One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest. But I wasn't afraid of ECT because at that point I wasn't afraid of anything. You just want what you have become to stop."
Born on March 28, 1957 to Mavis and Clive Moxon, who lived in Morley and ran a chain of baker's shops, the young Beverley grew up wanting to become an actress. Every Saturday afternoon she and her mum would sit next to each other in the red fold-down seats of the Majestic in City Square, revelling in the escapism of a world inhabited by tall, dark and handsome men and women whose lipstick never faded.
And at Waterloo Junior School in Pudsey she bagged the lead role in the school play, even though it was a boy's part, and instantly found herself at home in the spotlight.
Yet the happiness of her childhood was shattered when her beloved grandad confessed to killing a man in an argument sparked by his growing gambling addiction. He subsequently died in Armley jail, despite many believing he had acted in self-defence. It was to be the first of many revelations that would jolt Beverley throughout her life.
"Life has never been boring," she says, with a great big dollop of understatement. "But it's not all been bad, there have been some great times. It's been a mixture."
At 16 she discovered she was pregnant by her boyfriend Paul and the pair duly tied the knot, two months before her 17th birthday, at Dewsbury Register Office. But even though the arrival of daughter Rebecca helped her overcome the heartbreak of losing that child to a miscarriage, she says Paul started drinking heavily and one night beat her after a blazing row, breaking her nose. Divorce followed and a second marriage to David, who she had met through a drama group, fizzled out.
When she tied the knot to Steve and the couple had son Josh, she hoped it would be a case of third time lucky. But she says Steve cheated on her twice and she ended up divorcing him. "My mum thought I was going to turn into another Liz Taylor and I did think of giving up on men, I really did," she admits with a giggle. "I just thought, Ok, I'm an independent woman, that's it. But that's usually when something changes in your life and, luckily for me, I met my partner Jon, who's a builder, and now life is very good."
Throughout the dramas in her personal life, Beverley's career in front of the cameras continued to blossom. She remembers her dad getting her to circle potential jobs in the family's Yorkshire Evening Post and for a time she worked on the make-up counter in Boots. But acting was always the career she imagined for herself and she managed to secure an Equity card on the back of her first professional role in an early Ibsen play called The Vikings at Helgeland, performed inside York Minster.
Small parts in other things followed. She had five lines in a sitcom with Mollie Sugden called That's My Boy! and Minder star George Cole recommended her after she appeared alongside him and Peter Bowles in The Bounder. A break came when she landed the role of Angie Richards in what was then Emmerdale Farm. Contracted to do four episodes, she ended up staying for six months and briefly dated co-star Ian Sharrock, who played Jackie Merrick.
It led to an audition for Coronation Street, resulting in a six-week stint as June Dewhurst, who befriended Brian and Gail Tilsley, only to lead Brian astray. But it was the role five years later of army wife Liz McDonald that was to make her a household name.
Liz, fiery husband Jim and sons Steve and Andy, arrived on the street in 1989 and immediately became firm favourites with the show's legions of fans.
"At first going into a show like that is very daunting because there is a lot to live up to," she says. "It's a programme that has gone on nearly 50 years and you're surrounded by all these talented people. Also you're acting with someone who you don't know and you have to look as though you've been married to them for years.
"But me and Charlie Lawson (who played Jim McDonald) hit it off straight away and had a lot of fun. We grew very close and we still are to this day. I just love playing Liz. It's such a great role and so much fun to play. She goes from high drama to very funny comedy, so I've got the best of both worlds."
Beverley's first stay on the street lasted nearly ten years before she left to return to the stage and do more comedy. The Beckhams were at her leaving party and Cliff Richard sent a bouquet. But by 2003 she was back and has no intention of leaving the soap any time soon. "I love it," she says. "It's like opening a present when you get that script and as long as I keep getting that buzz then I'll stay."
Beverley, who now lives in Salford Quays, would love the entire McDonald clan to be reunited for this year's 50th anniversary but the decision is down to the scriptwriters.
Incredibly, she was back on the Coronation Street set just four months after last year's terrifying breakdown, which saw her undergo no fewer than 12 rounds of electric shock therapy. She is still receiving treatment in her ongoing battle with depression. She now hopes her new autobiography and its frank account of her struggle with the condition will help others to come to terms with their own problems.
"There is still a massive stigma attached to depression," she says. "There shouldn't be but there is. No one ever really knows what causes it, but what I want to get across in the book is that clinical depression is a physical thing. It's one of the valves in the limbic system in the brain that isn't working properly and we think in my case it was triggered by a hormone imbalance.
"I tried to battle on without really telling anyone. You think you're being strong, but you have to be strong enough to say 'I need help'. I'm still undergoing treatment and I'm not a 100 per cent better, but
I'm a million times better than I was at that stage. When I look back
on it I wonder how on earth I ever got through it. But I'm a fighter," she says. "I always bounce back and I'm proud of that. I'm definitely on the climb back up."
* Unbroken: A Story of Survival by Beverley Callard is out now published by Hodder & Stoughton, £16.99.